Lengthy Emails I Write to People, Part 1

I don’t know the Frenchman enough to bring him with me. 10 lives: i want to do many things with my life so i’m going to do them all. (and disregard capitalization in the process). I think i am different than i used to be a year ago or 2 years ago or 4 years ago. last year weird stuff happened and i had an emotional breakdown in portland/seattle. but now i feel more outgoing and optimistic and loving and creative. i really don’t have any contact with anyone who may think badly of me. i think i am much more… “open.”
i never considered talking to you at all, i mean why would i? i’m not one to live in the past. at all. but for some reason it seems like we would have more in common now. i have no reason to think that but i thought it. gawd, that sounds real heavy but it isn’t, i’m just typing my brain.
(adrian is still snarky but is actually much happier and nicer lately, i can tell)
i don’t own the coffee shop. i am the manager and after the owner left to do other stuff, he turned the place over to his sister and me. it is my baby. i was planning on opening my own shop downtown by now but i’m dealing with this one for a while. it is my baby. it is slowly turing into the shop i palnned on opening. planned. we are changing the name to 23rd street coffee. my coffee roaster is in portland. they are called water avenue coffee. they have a shop at the roastery. it is at 1028 SE Water Avenue.
i am not familiar with small black. i love snickers though, i became addicted to them (as well as cigarettes) last summer. not the summer we just had, the one before.
i have been single for over a year. it is weird. although i feel lonely at times, it has been neat. i hang out with my self a lot, which i enjoy very much. me head always feels like a swirling ball of energy and ideas that are about to jump out and that makes me happy and excited. 
this is a very long email. i like typing.
what do you want to do with your life? what music are you into lately?